My Wonderland

In my " Alice in Wonderland " I thought myself to be Alice, lost, curious and looking for a Mad hatter.
But analyzing the story better, perhaps the Cheshire Cat is more . . . me.
Disappearing without a warning, appearing in the same fashion, when gone you can still see a lingering sardonic smirk, manipulative, giving misleading and blunt-out wrong indications and even slightly presumptuous. In the wondrous  world of Alice, why not even be both? Just for kicks.
A Cheshire Cat named Alice, a cat masked as a girl, strolling throughout Wonderland deliberately lost just to find herself falling in the arms of a certain Mad Hatter in the middle of a Tea Party.
The rest of the people in the story are mere cards in a deck and dispensable pieces on a chess board.
I can't help but wonder though, in a game there are two players, have I yet to meet my opponent?

Quotes from "Reckless" by Cornelia Funke

p . 53
" Nibble , nibble , little mouse , who's been nibbling at my house? "

p . 97
" How they bowed their vain heads . Look at them , Therese . Wouldn't it be nice to have them all chopped off?
"

p . 98
" Power . Like wine when you have it . Like poison when you loose it ."

p . 134
" " My prices have increased considerably in the last three years ," he said . " I 'll let you live , " Jacob replied " That 's more than a raise than you deserve ." (...) " You seem desperate to get back to your old flame , " he purred ," and the price always rises with the desperation of the costumer ." In reply , Jacob tapped the nuzzle of his gun against the Dwarf  's hat . " Trust me ," he said , " this costumer is desperate enough to shoot you at the moment 's notice ." "

Quote 3#

" Youth wants to be stimulated rather than taught."

by Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

Small Details

In the morning while leaving the subway to catch the next one , I glanced quickly at a young adult with a computer bag in tow . He brought a book in his left hand with its spine turn downwards and the cover turned outwards . A sheaf , a " pocket book " , bigger than mine of 400 pages , I deducted about 700 . The marker was almost halfway but more to the outwards side , meaning , he had started the book some time ago and was almost halfway into it . Perhaps even page 260 or so . . .
Amazing the deductive reasoning of the human mind .

Leafless

I feel like a leafless tree , not lifeless , just leafless . I await my new layer patiently .
I look around and see green layers , dirty-green , jasmine-green , oak-green , Autumn-green , new green , old green and yellowed green ready to fall from the other trees ' branches onto the floor .
But green was never my color , maybe I 'll have flowers this time , or even purple leafs .
What if I tried a dark layer this time . dark enough to camouflage me in the midst of all the dead trees .

Note to self :

It 's most fascinating when a writer bares the gift to make a reader lose his way .

Quote 2#

" I may not have gone where I intended to go , but I think I have ended up where I needed to be ."

by Douglas Adams

Quote 2#

" I may not have gone where I intended to go , but I think I have ended up where I needed to be ."

by Douglas Adams

Note to self :

People say that the opportunity just " slipped away " when , nine times out of ten , it passed them by and they didn 't even bother to reach out .

Note to self :

A poem or a book are never really finished , there 's always something to add , so much more than mere wording on pages can tell .
So much more to it . . .

The goal of Artists

What do artists try to achieve ?
I asked myself that question.
The truth ? The new ?
Maybe they 're searching for the goal itself . . .
The essence and projection of the images in our head onto the outside world , that 's my goal .
The rest is just floating in space wrapped around their own thoughts.

The goal of Artists

What do artists try to achieve ?
I asked myself that question.
The truth ? The new ?
Maybe they 're searching for the goal itself . . .
The essence and projection of the images in our head onto the outside world , that 's my goal .
The rest is just floating in space wrapped around their own thoughts.

Quotes from "Death Note"

" There are many types of monsters that scare me : Monsters who cause trouble without showing themselves , monsters who abduct children , monsters who devour dreams , monsters who suck blood . . . and then , monsters who tell nothing but lies . Lying monsters are a real nuisance : They are much more cunning than others . They pose as humans even though they have no understanding of the human heart ; they eat even though they 've never experienced hunger ; they study even though they have no interest in academics ; they seek friendship even though they do not know how to love . If I were to encounter such monsters , I would likely be eaten by them . . . because in truth , I am that monster ."

L , Death Note Rewrite 

" The century 's greatest detective , advertised as solving every case imaginable . How great his burden must be , how much pain must he go through every single moment: past , present and future . . . a burden so great it would leave you hunched over . A bitter taste in your mouth that would leave you longing for sweets ."

Mello , Death Note : Another Note

Note to self :

" A chapter a day will keep ignorance away . "

Quotes from "The Book Thief" by Markus Zusak

p . 470
" It kills me sometimes , how people die ."

by Death

p . 475
" For some reason , dying men always ask questions they already know the answer to.
Perhaps it 's so they die being right. "

by Death

Quote 1#

"  Never say  "  I love you "
If you really don 't care
Never talk about feelings
If they aren 't really there
Never hold my hand
If you 're gonna break my heart
Never say you 're going to . . .
If don 't plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie . . .
Never say Hi
If you really mean Goodbye
If you really mean forever
Then say you will try
Never say forever
' Cuz forever makes me cry . . ."

quote from the movie

" Never been  kissed "

The copyright problem

I'm aware that the Death Note manga was removed from mangafox.com , and also that the youtube videos were removed too .
You can find the manga in other sites like www.citymanga.com www.mangahere.com
And watch anime on ( ironically )  www.watchanimeon.com
I 've also been addicted to Korean , Japanese and Thai dramas , mainly remakes of anime www.dramacrazy.net .
I 've seen the Kurosagi drama and the movie , there 's also a manga that I haven't read yet , but it 's worth it !

Quotes from "Moab is my washspot" by Stephen Fry

p . 382
" There was a time when he * had on his team people like Bach , Mozart , Michaelangelo , Leonardo, Raphael , Laud , Donne , Herbert , Swift and Wren : now he had awful , drippy wet smacks with no style , no wit , no articulacy and no magestry . "
* God

p . 386
" My bible was Bannister Fletcher and my God was Inigo Jones . "

p . 387
" I remember an episode of Star Trek that ends with Jim turning to Mcloy and saying ' Out there , Bones , someone is saying the three most beautiful words in the galaxy . ' I fully expected the nauseous obviousness of ' I love you ' . But Kirk turned to the screen , gazed at the stars and whispered : ' Please , help me . '
Strange , the potency of cheap television . "

p . 432
" Go and sin no more ? I'm sorry , Mr. Cromie , but there are sins out there I haven't even heard of yet - not even me : clever-clog , smart-arse , read-it-all , know-it-all , seen-it-all me .
You bet I was fucking exuberant . "

Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge

Or also known as " The Wallflower " or even " Perfect Girl Evolution ", is about a girl that got called " ugly " by the first boy she ever confessed her love to . From then on Sunako shuned all forms of beauty , both in herself as well as in life becoming a perfect " horror girl " and has no intention of changing . Concerned by her change for the worst , Sunako's aunt , the owner of a beautiful mansion where four very handsome students live , offered them free rent in her mansion if they could turn Sunako into a "perfect lady" ( referred to in Japan as the titular Yamato Nadeshiko ) .
Throughout almost the whole story they managed to convince Sunako's aunt that her niece had become a lady and thus preventing the rent from increasing to triple the required amount . However, in reality Sunako had not changed at all. Sunako had the tendency to spurt out in a nose bleed when seen by " bright creatures " ( something she called all beautiful people ) , especially around one of the boys , Kyohei .


This series has started as a manga ( 27 volume ) , then an anime ( 25 episodes ) , and most recently , a Japanese drama ( 10 episodes ) of which can be seen on :
http://www.dramacrazy.net/japanese-drama/yamato-nadeshiko-shichi-henge-episode-1/
along with other Japanese dramas , my favorites being one's based on anime / manga .

Note to self :

Think before you act or talk , preferably twice in the least.

Strangely Attractive

I always liked Death Note and thought it was a great manga, but later on they made an Anime based on the manga, and even later on they made three movies based on the anime/manga series (Death Note I; Death Note II: The Last Name; Death Note III: L, Change The World). Now I am completely hooked on it, especially on L.

L is the strange looking genius detective, the best in the whole world actually, with raven black hair and dark eyes, he's always crouched and is always wearing the same baggy jeans and white t-shirt, he has a strange addiction to sweets and strawberries and also has a strange way of talking with percentages. All in all, he's strangely attractive, not to mention adorable.
Even in the movies when the character is played by Kenichi Matsuyama he looks attractive.

This is a quick sketch I made of him, he's a little more cutesy than actuality but still...

Furthermore, I purchased all three films on eBay, saw the manga on www.mangafox.com, the anime can be seen on youtube starting with http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U31b6kelPJA&feature=related English subbed, a user was kind enough to put the whole series there.

After the anime/manga there was also a book (Death Note: Another Note: The Los Angeles BB Murder Cases) by NisiOisiN (pen name, not to make it painfully obvious) narrated by Mello, it talks about a murder case in Los Angeles where L and Naomi Misora worked together on, it serves as a prequel to the series.

Starting out

Perhaps I should start this blog with a brief introduction to my person. I'm a young female outcast by choice who loves to read and hates reality checks.
I read a lot, not only books but stories written by kids my age or so*¹ , also I read some occasional fanfiction*² and often tend to start one of my own... but never really begin to write any of it (trying to write a fanfiction about Sky High WarrenxOC and thinking about another one on Death Note LxOC).
I do write ,though, some stories, they're all unfinished but I'm still working on them.
Seeing as I may sound boring and uninteresting I reach out for common topics with people to make a seemingly basic conversation. I tend to make friends easily but with time I often lose contact with most- either one of us forget or don't feel like starting a new conversation or bonding more that needed (I'm also too busy all the time and like to avoid most human contact).
Now that that's over and done with maybe I should mention that I'm also an art student with high expectations for the future if the world doesn't end up killing me first.
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*¹ You can find this kind of stories in sites like:
http://quizilla.teennick.com/
http://www.booksie.com/
http://www.wattpad.com/
http://mibba.com/
and http://www.fictionpress.com/
*² Fan fictions can be found on all of this sites except 'fictionpress', it has another one dedicated specifically to  fiction stories based on something that has already been made:
http://www.fanfiction.net/